Thursday, October 08, 2009

An exercise in Spiritual Contemplation.

"As between the soul and the body there is a bond,
so are the body and its environment linked together."
- Kahlil Gibran

"For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope.
Then when you call upon me and come and pray to me, I will hear you.
When you search for me, you will find me;
if you seek me with all your heart, I will let you find me, says the Lord.
.."
- Jeremiah 29: 11 - 14a

Today I ventured outdoors to Prairie View to visit a labyrinth. I journeyed there with my Spiritual Formation classmates and Professor. It was a nice experience. The labyrinth is tucked in a clearing of small-ish trees and tall shrubs. It's been designed after the Labyrinth at Chartres Cathedral in France, as seen below.
Walking a labyrinth is supposed to take you in a very meandering path to a center and then out again. This exercise was, for me, an attempt to place myself in a natural setting while reflecting meditatively on the activity in my life. I have always considered Labyrinth walking as a practical exercise of laying one's burden's down in a systematic way while moving toward a centering of a wholly unburdened person and a peace discovery in the middle of all the chaos.So, upon arriving at the mouth of the Labyrinth, I asked God to join me and set off. It is remarkable to me that I was immediately comforted in the knowledge that I was moving toward the center of something that would cradle me. However, as the path suddenly veered away from the center I started to worry, panic, get anxious - feel afraid. I was moving toward the fringes. I know that there is little protection on the fringe. And here I was making myself vulnerable in walking slowly, contemplating my life, and carefully picking out the "stuff" that I wanted to lay down on my path behind me. Of course, no one else can see it, but that's not the point. I can. And I wasn't comfortable making myself spiritually "naked". But I plodded on.

By now, other people have started into the Labyrinth and I am noticing something. Whenever I walk past a person, I think: "Oh how nice to see someone else on this pathway..." We're walking together, and sometimes I seem to be leading, sometimes following, it's neat how the Labyrinth's pattern makes us "cross paths" even though we are all on our own journey. When they are closer to the fringe than I, I think: "Wow, it's like they are protecting me..." and vise versa when I am closer to the edges - it may be scary there, but I feel at times as though I am protecting someone else closer in.

Plodding along, laying out my burdens, lightening my proverbial load, making my way to the center. And eventually, after all the twists and turns, I get there. And there is a bloom with one central rock. My rock. The rock on which we have all been placed. I take some time to thank God for all the good in my life; to earnestly pray about the "stuff" and the people that I am struggling with; and to reflect back on what I have laid out in this particular journey.

And then it's time to walk back. The curious thing to me is how you have to retrace your steps in order to get out of the Labyrinth. There isn't an immediate exit. This is not a Point A to Point B journey. It's a Point A to Point A trip. So, you have some time to collect your thoughts, reflect even more on what you did to get to the center, pack it all up, and move along.

True to form, I did just that. I noticed yet another thing: all those heavy burdens? Not so heavy anymore, not large and cumbersome, and certainly not taking up all that much space in my life anymore. And I have this new posture. I am taller, looking ahead or straight up or down - observing the natural setting around me, admiring the freshly falling snow, and reveling in the peace. But, I am not focused on the ground, or on me, so much anymore. I pick up those burdens, now really just bothers, and put them in a "pocket" - so much lighter.

And then, it's over. I exit the Labyrinth, and take a moment to thank God for walking with me. A truly wonderful experience.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Varying degrees of memorization.

All scripture is inspired by God and is useful for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, so that everyone who belongs to God may be proficient, equipped for every good work. 2 Timothy 3: 16 – 17

I am discovering that there is a lot of memorization to first year Seminary. There are the obvious ones, and the not so obvious ones. I honestly have a hard time learning in the form of memorization. I get anxious when I am put on the spot. So I have been asking for help of late. It's been interesting to hear the different ways in which people learn.

These are the things that I am currently working on to memorize:
- The Books of the Bible. (I didn't get to learn this in Sunday School so it's been interesting)
- The Names of the Apostles
- The first 8 chapters in the Gospel of Mark (specifically the narratives and their order that occur in each chapter. There are 41 in total!!!)
- Some specific terms about Christ's humanity and divinity. (Not everyone needs to know what Hypostesis or Homoiousios are and why they are different, or what Communicatio Idiomatum is and how it applies to theology.)

Regardless of how daunting that list may look to most people, myself included, I have managed to get some semblance of training into my life. I can almost recite the books of the bible, NT down - still working on the OT (I get tripped up around Ezra Nehemiah...) But I have a great resource that's been helping me. Those of you that follow me on Facebook have already seen the video. I sing the song in the shower, and I am seriously thinking of asking Martin's Voice to learn it. I love it!

And you can find it here:
The Bible books

The Apostles was actually pretty easy and straightforward. I alphabetized the list and it became innate. Happily, done. Next!

Mark is freaking me out!!!!! There are 41 steps that are split into 8 chapters and aren't broken into any pattern that I have been able to discern! I am trying not to panic and I am trying to figure them out. Eventually it will come - just hope it does before the midterm!

The terms themselves are repeated in nearly every class that I am taking so I am not too terribly worried about knowing what they are. I guess this too shall pass.

All in all, in pretty deep at the moment. Now I have to get back at it.

Blessings.