The New Year.

I had a couple of interesting questions when I awoke this morning. What if I had never come to seminary? How would my life with God be different if I hadn't taken these classes and never read the things that I have read so far? Would I be as happy?

I suppose I ponder these questions from time to time because I see notable differences in the way I attend church, engage with people around me, and exist in the world as a Christian. I don't know if other people see changes in me too. It would have been interesting to have a created list of questions that I could ask myself at various times throughout this journey. I suppose I do in a way. CTEL has a survey for me to fill out every year, and there is always the faculty review that I did last year (and am sure to do this year). Somehow, these aren't getting me to a point where I can determine real and visible change.

Perhaps I should start asking people what they see that is different about me.

No resolutions this year. I haven't thought of a single one that will be kept the whole year. And I'm okay with that.