"What gain have the workers from their toil? I have seen the business that God has given to everyone to be busy with. He has made everything suitable for its time; moreover he has put a sense of past and future into their minds, yet they cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. I know that there is nothing better for them than to be happy and enjoy themselves as long as they live; moreover, it is God's gift that all should eat and drink and take pleasure in all their toil. I know that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it; God has done this, so that all should stand in awe before him. That which is, already has been; that which is to be, already is; and God seeks out what has gone by." Ecclesiastes 3: 9-15
It's interesting to me that time can seem still, stopped, altogether too fast, or like there's never enough of it. The way in which we conceptualize time is a fascinating thing to think about. Lately, I seem to be reflecting on it a lot. A whole month has passed by since my last post - and to me it feels both longer and shorter.
I am devoted to my studies and everything I am involved with at school is done with some sense of Joy. The days pass quickly and I often find myself at the end of a school week wondering where the week went in the first place.
And yet, the evenings are the time I come to dread. It's not as serious as that, surely, but the time I spend alone is difficult. I find ways to fill the time, but I am noticing that these ways are not necessarily the ways I prefer to spend my time. I want to cherish the time on my own as I do the day spent at school. I want to be thankful for all of the time I have.
This has me thinking about art an awful lot this week. I have been thinking about how to use the time I devoted to "becoming" an artist in my life devoted to answering a call to ordained ministry. I am puzzled by the split my mind has created between my spirituality and my creativity -- and I am slowly trying to introduce the two to one another. Sometimes with incredible success and sometimes with incredible dissatisfaction. Either way, it is a practice that I wish I could spend more time on.
I have been thinking about where my life is going to lead me, when I will feel as though I have reached a stability that will be a comfort. I am in a time-based process of stretching, growing, shrinking, expanding, and soaring - all leading to a faith-filled purpose that I may at some time understand.
In the meantime, I create what little I can in an attempt to voice the emotions of my soul. I wanted to share a video with you. It's been titled "Alone" and uses the music of Annie Lennox. This song speaks to me, and I often find myself humming it, passing time, while I am walking out in the world. Admittedly, it's lyrics are a little sad, but it's a reminder to me that I can still "get there by myself". I hope you enjoy it.
I am devoted to my studies and everything I am involved with at school is done with some sense of Joy. The days pass quickly and I often find myself at the end of a school week wondering where the week went in the first place.
And yet, the evenings are the time I come to dread. It's not as serious as that, surely, but the time I spend alone is difficult. I find ways to fill the time, but I am noticing that these ways are not necessarily the ways I prefer to spend my time. I want to cherish the time on my own as I do the day spent at school. I want to be thankful for all of the time I have.
This has me thinking about art an awful lot this week. I have been thinking about how to use the time I devoted to "becoming" an artist in my life devoted to answering a call to ordained ministry. I am puzzled by the split my mind has created between my spirituality and my creativity -- and I am slowly trying to introduce the two to one another. Sometimes with incredible success and sometimes with incredible dissatisfaction. Either way, it is a practice that I wish I could spend more time on.
I have been thinking about where my life is going to lead me, when I will feel as though I have reached a stability that will be a comfort. I am in a time-based process of stretching, growing, shrinking, expanding, and soaring - all leading to a faith-filled purpose that I may at some time understand.
In the meantime, I create what little I can in an attempt to voice the emotions of my soul. I wanted to share a video with you. It's been titled "Alone" and uses the music of Annie Lennox. This song speaks to me, and I often find myself humming it, passing time, while I am walking out in the world. Admittedly, it's lyrics are a little sad, but it's a reminder to me that I can still "get there by myself". I hope you enjoy it.
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